Apology to My Firstborn

Sweet sensitive loving Hudson,
I have made mistakes in my role as your mother and I hope the damage is not irrepairable…for these things I am so sorry.

I’m sorry that I made you cry yourself to sleep at 8 weeks in your own crib… I wish I would have snuggled close with you in my bed like I did with your baby sister.

I’m sorry for forcefully making you talk to adults when they talked to you… I promise I have learned better techniques for teaching social behavior.

I’m sorry I let my fear of you sinning cause me to be irrational at times… I know now that you will make poor choices and it will not mean that satan has taken over your life… It will mean you are a journeying human… Just like the rest of us.

I’m sorry that I didn’t play with you more… I’m trying to make up for it now.

I want you to know that I am on your side… It is my goal to foster closeness in our relationship… I don’t want you to fear me.

Thank you for being a fantastic big brother, thank you for being a cooperative student, thank you for loving me inspite of my failures.

You are nothing short of amazing.

I love you to the moon.
Mommy

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2 Responses to Apology to My Firstborn

  1. Yia Yia says:

    The good news is that kids are resilient and your loving him now will cover a multitude of mistakes. And being the eldest child has its perks just as it has its trials. Love on, Mommy!

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  2. i'm feeling deep with you.

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